Guess Who's Back

Hi Readers!

I'm back from a five month hiatus (not that I think many people noticed haha). If you've noticed that some posts are no longer on this blog it's because I'm trying to find my true voice in blogging and talk about things that I'm passionate about and that matter to me, so I turned some posts that don't really fit well with who I am or what I care about into drafts again. You will also notice that some of the categories (just maybe like two or so) I'll be posting about have changed as well. I'll be revamping the look of my blog with time but I got tired of putting off posting because there's so much I want to share with you and I'm missing out on it. See, I'm a "self doubting perfectionist" in the words of the 16 personalities test I took 4 months ago (where are my fellow INFJ-T's?), so I always never want to do anything unless it's 110% perfect in my eyes, but I'm working on that.

So what have I been up to?

Over the past five months I've done a lot of soul searching. I've had many breakdowns and depressive episodes about many different things going on in my life. I struggled to find my passion for life and I couldn't come on here and be like "my life sucks I don't care about anything" because how interesting is that? Although I do think there's a serious issue with social media and how everyone's lives are presented as perfect, which is why I'm being so candid about the issues I've faced so that others know that they aren't alone. And please, don't take this post as a "I have it all together now" because I most definitely do not but I'm trying and that's all that matters. I don't really care to hash out all the details here for you but just know that I've been going through a tough time and have started going to therapy at the end of June. I plan to talk more openly about it maybe at the 6 month mark because I feel like it's way too soon for me to share any of those details with you. All I can say is if you're struggling, seek help. There's nothing worse than going through pain alone and while there have been days that I get frustrated because progress is not happening as fast as I want it to, I am much better off going to therapy than if I wasn't.

So instead of telling you all the sad little things, I want to really focus on the positive highlights of my five month hiatus.

  • Survived a whole year at my big girl job and living in an apartment with my two cousins (the second part is the hardest :P)
  • Helped my mom with moving into her new house!
  • Saw Hamilton after binge listening to the album at least once a week since March (it was incredible!)
  • Got back into planning
  • Found my passion for design and wasn't ashamed to share my art with others
  • Helped some of my closest friends
  • Found the motivation to begin again (with my blog, my creativity, my passions, etc.)
  • Ate lots of soft serve ice cream over the summer
  • Celebrated a year and half with my boyfriend! (2 days ago)
There are many little things that when I look back on put a smile on my face and I'm going to keep that energy going forward because at the end of the day all the positive little things outweigh the bad.

If you read this post in it's entirety I just want to say thank you! I promise to post about really interesting, entertaining, and even thought provoking things here for you. I'm not going to just sell myself short by sharing fluff with you guys because at the end of the day I've been searching for a blogger like me and I haven't found that yet so I really want to become that. If you have a blog that talks about life, tech, style, etc., leave me a comment and I'll check you out!

I will leave you with a quote to end this post: "If you don't like where you are, change it. You're not a tree." - Jim Rohn